"Life moves pretty fast, if you don't stop to look around once in awhile, you just might miss it." --Ferris Bueller
A modern prophet really. It seems I've spent my whole life preparing for the next step. I have terminally lived in a time that is not promised to me. Blaise Pascal said thats a real shame when we do that. He said we neglect the one time we can control because we waste all our days regretting the past or planning for the future. I agree. I'm really trying to focus my life now for the future. I think there really is a difference. I know I have tried to live focused on the future and I think it is worthless. I think I need to live realizing that there may be a future, but the past way to prepare for it is to be the person for the future right now. If it comes I am ready. If not, then I am who I supposed to be anyway. I promise this all makes sense in my head. Nevertheless I press on. I pray that I will see my life right now as what it is supposed to be. I pray that I realize I am who I am. I pray that I do not live one more minute regretting, and that I live in motion, understanding the value of the past only relative to how it allows me to live the now. Mercy is great. Christ has shown clemency beyond my capacity to understand. I will rest in that and not try to dissect it. I will take it as freely as it has been given.
